Some snippets of the apartment taken on Tuesday morning. It feels so good to have film work to show again. I stopped for a while because it was getting to be frighteningly expensive, but seeing film results always make my heart flutter in a way that digital cannot.
It's been busy busy busy over here and lots of priorities have shifted. I remember I used to spend at least a few hours shopping every week - yes, EVERY week. Now of course there is no time (and no money) for that. It's been hard to put together another his look/her look post because my style/wardrobe has been the least of my concerns and focus. I recently had the strangest sensation that I couldn't wait to be in my 30s (when I've usually feared that). Maybe then I will be finally secure - in this saturated competitive industry and in myself and what I'm doing. Of course, it'd be great if I could achieve all that while still in my 20s. ;)
I try not to complain too much on the blog because it's my happy place, but shit, this is HARD. Having to handle the business side of things and producing all the creative work and trying to be PROFITABLE after everything (the insurance, the equipment, the upkeep of equipment, the film!, misc. random costs that you never think about when you decide you to make the jump into the freelance world) - it is a lot to swallow. I mean, do I regret making the leap and pursuing photography full time? HELL NO. I knew it wasn't going to be all fun and games. I knew tears and sweat would be shed. I knew I would probably never shop at Saks again (:P), but I also know that my eventual success and achievements would be a DIRECT result of the work and effort that I put in. I would produce things that I could call mine. And the little triumphs along the way are so much more meaningful than, say, a promotion at some job or a shiny new office could ever be to me.
I'm chugging along because there's something good (no - great) to be had out of all this. Day to day, I'm happy and I love what I'm working towards, but just wish I could learn the ropes better and faster. What a crazy ballgame this all is.
(And to think this was just going to be a post with pretty morning light photos! Oops.)